Forgivess

And you ask for forgiveness

You're asking too much

I have sheltered my heart

In a place you can't touch

I don't believe when you tell me

Your love is real

'Coz you don't know much about heaven, boy

If you have to hurt to feel

                                                                             - Sarah Mclachlan

the cliche would be "forgive and forget"... I'd rather forgive but not forget...Who would choose to forget everything that has happened when you know it might happen again? When you know that after forgetting you might fall on the same lie again and experience for another time every hurt, every pain that the lie has brought you with. It really is painful when all you want is to forget every memory that has hurt you but then again forgetting means fear...Fear of accepting your past, avoiding it. When the truth it you cannot run away from it...All you have to do is to leave it from where it was, is, and will always be...in the PAST..

nakakasama ng loob kapag minsan ikaw na nga ung nagmamalasakit ikaw pa ung masama... di bale sana kung may sense of responsibility ung iba kaso wala...it isnt always your way bitch and because of what posted im going to push your limits and piss you off even more...the hell i care...I dont need someone like you in my life. buti nlang konting tiis nalang at ggraduate na ko..i wont see yo ugly face anymore...go to hell bitch:)

too lazy to do my thesis today:| kind of sad, i don't know why.. a bit disappointed with a friend...i do not miss my long time friend's company:| it was hard at first but with all the drama, i got sick and tired and ended up not caring for that friend anymore. im sorry, that's all i can say...right now, things are already different. i am different. you are different. and. we. just. don't. jive. anymore. :|

"ROSE"

The Vampire Diaries' episodes are getting better and better.. I just finished watching ep08 of Season 02. The first part was kind of action-full but then the later parts were just oh-so-sweet especially when Stefan was apologizing to his brother Damon and then Damon was super sweet to Elena and also to his brother, of couurse without Stefan knowing it...I just find what Damon did so manly:)

Damon about to hand Elena's necklace to her stopped and said some things first to her.

"What I'm about to say probably is the most selfish thing I've said in my life."

"I just have to say it once and you just have to hear it."

"I LOVE YOU, Elena, and it's because I Love You that I can't be selfish with you."

"I don't deserve you but my brother does."

(Damon kisses Elena's forehead wishing she doesn't have to forget what he said then he compelled Elena teary-eyed until his tear suddenly fell from his gorgeous eye.)

Going through that kind of situation must be very painful especially in Damon's part but I guess that's what you call TRUE LOVE...

Uhh-oh

I ACCIDENTALLY FOLLWED MY OWN BLOG...HAHA SORRY IM JUST A NEWBIE HERE AND I DUNNO HOW TO UNFOLLOW MYSELF:))

Sudoku 101

It's weird, I know, but solving sudoku puzzles has been my lullaby for a few weeks' nights now.

Presenting to you Sudoku 101: sudoku variants:

1. Classic Sudoku

~ A classic sudoku puzzle consists of a 9x9 grid- nine cells per row and nine cells  per column. the 9x9 grid is also further divided into 3x3 subgrids. You start off with some numbers already plotted in for you. Your goal is to fill in the missing numbers to complete the puzzle so that each row, each column, and each subgrid contains the numbers 1 to 9 only once.


2. Odd and Even Sudoku

~Solve odd and even Sudoku puzzles the same way you would solve the Classic puzzles. This means that numbers 1 to 9 should appear in each row, column, and 3x3 grid only once. But in odd and even puzzles, the shaded boxes must only contain even numbers for even sudoku or odd numbers for odd sudoku puzzles.


3. Diagonal Sudoku

~To solve a diaggonal sudoku puzzle, you must follow the rules of Classic Sudoku plus you must make sure that each diagonal contains the numbers 1 to 9 only once.


4. Diagonal Odd and Even Sudoku


~diagonal odd and even sudoku are combinations of two variants: diagonal sudoku and odd or even sudoku. Solve as you would a Classic Sudoku, except each diagonal must contain the numbers 1 to 9 only once, as well, and the shaded boxes should hold only numbers for diagonal odd or even numbers depending if it's an odd or an even sudoku puzzle.


5. Irregular or Jigsaw Sudoku

~ Solve as you would a classic sudoku except this time, the 3x3 grids have irregular shapes. this means that you have to make sure that the numbers 1 to 9 appears in each row, column, and irregularly shaped grid only once. 


6. Mega Sudoku

~ You have here a 12x12 grid or a 16x16 grid puzzle. Fill in the empty squares so that each row, column, and subgrid contains the numbers 1to12 or 1to16 only once. 


7. Multi Sudoku

~This consists of multiple overlapping 9x9 grids. You have to fill in each 9x9 grid so that each row, column, and subgrid contains the numbers 1x9 only once. Grids with overlapping areas will also follow the rules of each individual 9x9 puzzle.


8. Sum or Killer Sudoku

~This one I haven't tried yet... I still can't figure out how to do this one:))

~This is a merge of Sudoku and Kakuro. You must hold to the rules of classic sudoku plus make sure that the sum of the numbers in each area is equal to the clue number given and that the numbers in each areas are unique.

* All the descriptions for the Sudoku Variants came from the Sudoku book, "Sudoku Samurai Sensei Vol1 Issue1" :) 

Back-to-school

Today marked the end of sembreak and the beginning of my last semester as a college student.

It was tiring though i didnt do much:
-schedule. CHECK
-new thesis adviser. CHECK
-agreed on things concerning the upcoming Naga Convention. CHECK
-searched for cheap flights, hotels, etc. CHECK
-called this and that. CHECK
-ended up called the Penafrancia Bus line office and Villa Caceres Hotel. CHECK
-finalized traveling by land. CHECL
-planned on watching a movie. FAILED
awww...sad, but there's always a next time. RIGHT? :)

No Regrets...Just In Time

In love we found one another

And as promised I held your hand

For a little while joy was found

Then you decided to end things up

Suddenly there was a bleeding heart

That kept hurting for quite a while

The feeling of your hand holding mine

Stayed with me even when you were gone

I hated you for leaving me

But hating you just cannot be

For my heart still beats for you

Despite of all the accompanying pain

Long awaiting for the special day

You loving me still was what I heard

My heart leapt with much delight

But hearing it was just what I needed, I realized

Guilt struck me as you felt that way

Around it is now with what it was

Reciprocity I cannot give now

For fooling you and me is all it will be

Playing with fire is enough for us

Now is the time to grow apart

A lot of time wasted by me and you

For forcing things that are not meant to be

first time

Okay.. so last night I couldn't sleep so I grabbed my phone then started playing with words. Writing poems is not really my forte and it even made me cry once way back in hs when my teacher required us to do one.. However there are really times when I am not myself and able to do something I don't usually do..like writing a poem... it takes a lot of confidence and an intense feeling before I am able to write things up..But last night was different, I guess I was just super bored and that made me write...

I am supposed to be doing my thesis now 'coz I am now in my last sem and will be graduating on March'11.Still, I'll try to fill this blog with posts and practice sharing what I truly feel to someone else because it is really tiring when you keep most of what's happening and what you feel to yourself :)